Hey yall!!!!! I just want to take this moment to say THANK YOU all for the support!!! If you haven’t already – go like the facebook/insta pages – both are @wearebrokenbeautifully and check out the pics and vids from this past weekends event!!! Also, if this is your first time, please start at “Scars to Beauty Marks! Part One!” so you’re up to speed and got the low down and everything!!
So for this one – man after this weekends event, “Walk in My Shoes!” – I woke up Sunday morning and out of nowhere, I busted into tears!! NOT sad tears at all – tears of pure joy and thankfulness!!! I still cannot believe that a few months ago, I was telling God “NO!” about starting this blog but I now realize – I said, “no!” because I was focused on me and the impact it could possibly have on me instead of focusing on The Kingdom of God and how many people this blog… this movement could help!! I am just thankful for the encouragement from God to let me know I can do it and from my amazing circle that helped pushed me along the way!
After the event, I couldn’t believe and still cannot believe that God has been and is able to use me to do His work! I am thankful. Humbled. Appreciative. Elated. Those words partially describe how I feel! I don’t think I could ever really describe how I feel knowing that God has chosen me to help others know who He is and find peace through Him and within themselves!! See, I’ve told you guys – I have always counted myself out as well as have always been counted out! Kiesha wasn’t the prettiest. The smartest. The funniest. I was just always the craziest! Even when I gave my life back to God, I never expected to be used by Him in any significant way! I figured I had done too much! I’d left too many times. I’d drank too much. Been angry too much! I just allowed the things that I did in my past to define the relationship I was going to have with God… AND THAT WAS MY MISTAKE AS WELL AS SO MANY OTHERS MISTAKE! When we give our life to God – it has nothing to do with our past except that He is saving us from it! In Him, ALL THINGS ARE MADE NEW! That includes who you are and who He calls you to be! We aren’t defined by our old habits; our old way of thinking; our old friends, etc. We come in with a clean slate and whomever He wants to use – He will use!!!
I often think of Paul! He is my absolute favorite when it comes to seeing that your past doesn’t define who God can make you to be! He was a man that actually persecuted people for believing in God! He made it his business to even be in attendance when others were persecuting people for their belief! He sought out to go find them so they could be persecuted! Oh but one day…. One day his spiritual eyes were opened to see that the very God whom he persecuted is the same God he’d come to love so very much! I don’t recall one time God throwing in Paul’s face the things he had done! However, I do remember Him telling Paul that His grace was sufficient and that His strength is made perfect in weakness! (my fav scripture EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
God doesn’t throw our past up in our faces like people do but we constantly throw it up in our own face also! We allow what we think others will say about us now because of our past and that scares us from being bold in who He has made and is making us to be but one thing I’ve learned and it’s something I have to continue to remember every single day…. It’s not about them! It doesn’t matter who says something about your past! Anyone who is throwing up your past hasn’t been delivered from theirs and need a bit more time on the altar because SAINTS don’t throw up the past but they glorify in it because God has freed us and we are no longer bound by it! Don’t let anyone fool you to think they’ve been perfect and that they don’t have skeletons in their closets that they hope are never revealed! We ALL have some!
Sometimes I think God gets a kick off of using the ones that man count out just so He can let them know…. you ain’t got the final say in nothing!!! His ways are not our ways neither His thoughts our thoughts – so what man thinks is to be glorified, God might want it to be brought low!
We have to stop allowing others to dictate who we are now versus who we were! I don’t want to be the same person tomorrow (if the Lord blesses me to see it) that I was today…. I want to be BETTER every day and so does God but people love to keep people the same especially when they feel it threatens their status. Not everyone is real when they say they are wishing you success and blah, blah, blah! Some are okay with you going a little bit higher as long as you stay below them! But thank goodness they don’t have the final say!!!!
I can tell you from my own personal experience, I can tell the ones who have changed towards me since God has began to move into my life! Did it make me upset? Absolutely not! They probably have no idea that I even realized it! But there is no reason to get upset about it – I am not trying to do anything malicious! I’m just over here living and letting God live in me and what happens afterwards is God’s business not mine! I continue to pray for them. Speak to them! And I keep it moving! But I cannot stop working for God because it makes others uncomfortable! I didn’t ask for any of this! Telling complete strangers my business! Being transparent about things I NEVER shared with anyone…. nah, this wasn’t my plan but it came with my “Yes!” to God and so I’m learning to embrace it!
I remember being told so much in my life that I would never amount to anything and I believed it because I heard it so much! When I got saved, I was so ate up with what everyone else had to say about me that I couldn’t clearly hear what God was trying to say to me and anything I told myself was just a repeat of the negative talk from someone else! But He was trying to show me that I was beautiful! That I could become someone! That my past didn’t define me! That I am loved! That I am special! And it has nothing to do with what I can do for Him but simply because I am me! So whoever you are, wherever you are – if you are similar to who I used to be; if you have began to believe the negative talk others have spoken over your life! STOP NOW!!! Go to the mirror and look at yourself! Grab on to something strong and with all the confidence in the world tell yourself…. Man’s Trash Is God’s TREASURE!!! You are loved! You are appreciated! You are treasured by God!!!!
With Broken, Beautifulness,